Quick, Quick!

Well seeing as I’ve gotten to TAFE (work placement) half an hour early I thought I’d quickly jump on a computer in the LIRN space and give a quick blog…

Well I have NO idea what I’m going to be doing today, I’ll find out at 9am won’t I…? That’s 15 minutes from now duh…
I’m sitting across from Josh, he’s always here on Thursdays too and usually comes to lunch with me…

Well after I finish today I’ll be walking home and Tameeka will be texting me once she’s finished her work placement at some Womens Refuge place, she finishes at 6 I think and we’ll be figuring out what’s going on tonight, either I’ll be staying at her place or she’ll be staying at mine…
Austar gets installed at her house on Friday so she’s happy about that…

Well I best be off to the Help Desk now, it’s 8:49 but it’s always good to get there 5-10 minutes early…

ADIOS!

Just Incase…

Ok… just incase I can’t post tomorow, as I have work placement from 9-5 I thought i’d post now and tell my plans for the weekend ahead…

Tomorrow I have work placement here at the TAFE, from 9am to 5pm, I only have 3 weeks left of it I think… I’m not quite sure, i cannot remember… And then after that on the Friday I don’t exactly have any plans but I will have to be home because i think Mum’s working and I may have to look after Tim, speaking of Tim he is the most annoying little so and so sometimes… He’ll take like a million years to go up the hallway in his wheelchair and you’re stuck behind him walking 2 steps an hour lol, nah he’s kool, he just blah blah blah never stops talking…

On Saturday and Sunday I will be doing something, I cannot say what though as it will spoil the suprise.. It is Tameeka’s birthday on Sunday, her 18th… She is having a party on the 24th and i am planning to do something special this weekend with her… I cannot say because she does read my blogs and yeah… dont want to spoil that do we?

I’m thinking about walking home soon, I’m getting bored here and home is equally as boring but Tameeka is not at home she is here at TAFE so yeah, and she is interesting… So you get the idea…

So if I do get spare time tomorow, I WILL be sure to blog and if I do over the weekend I will for sure…
But until then, wish me luck for Tameeka’s birthday this weekend…

ADIOS!

Lyrics, Lyrics, Lyrics

Now I thought I’d post some of my favourite lyrics from songs:

      —From “Der Meister“:
Die Wahrheit ist wie ein Gewitter
Es kommt zu dir du kannst es hören
Es kund zu tun ist ach so bitter
Es kommt zu dir um zu zerstören
      —-translates to—-
The truth is like a thunderstorm
It comes to you, you can hear it
To reveal it, is oh so bitter
It comes to you to destroy    

—From “Wollt ihr Das Bett In Flammen Sehen“
Ihr seht die Kreuze auf dem Kissen
Ihr meint euch darf die Unschuld küssen
Ihr glaubt zu töten wäre schwer
Doch wo kommen all die Toten her
     —-translates to—-
You see the crosses on the pillow
You think innocence may kiss you
You believe it would be hard to kill
But where are all of the dead coming from

    —From “Mein Herz Brennt“
Nun liebe Kinder gebt fein acht
Ich bin die Stimme aus dem Kissen
Ich hab euch etwas mitgebracht
Ein heller Schein am Firmament
Mein Herz brennt
     —-translates to—-
Now, dear children, pay attention
I am the voice from the pillow
I have brought you something
A bright light on the heavens
My heart burns

    —From “Zwitter“
Ich bin alleine doch nicht allein
Ich kann mit mir zusammen sein
Ich küsse früh mein Spiegelbild
Und schlafe abends mit mir ein
Wenn die anderen Mädchen suchten
Konnt ich mich schon selbst befruchten
So bin ich dann auch nicht verzagt
Wenn einer zu mir “Fick Dich” sagt
    —-translates to—-
I am alone but not alone
I can be together with myself
Early I kiss my reflection
And at night I fall asleep with myself
When the others searched for girls
I could already fertilize myself
I am not even downhearted then
When one tells me “Fuck Yourself”

    —From “Morgenstern“
Morgenstern ach scheine
Auf die Seele meine
Wirf ein warmes Licht
Auf ein Herz das bricht
Sag ihr dass ich weine
Denn du, du bist hässlich
Du bist einfach hässlich
Der Mensch ist doch ein Augentier
Schöne Dinge wünsch’ ich mir
Doch du, du bist nicht schön, nein
    —-translates to—-
Morningstar, oh shine
Onto the soul of mine
Cast a warm light
Onto a heart that’s breaking
Tell her that I’m crying
Because you, you are ugly
You are simply ugly
Humans are just creatures of the eye
Beautiful things are what I want
But you, you aren’t beautiful, no

    —From “Dalai Lama“
Weiter, weiter ins Verderben
Wir müssen leben bis wir sterben
    —-translates to—-
Onwards, onwards into destruction
We must live until we die

    —From “Ein Lied“
Wir sind die Diener eurer Ohren
Wir sind für die Musik geboren
Immer wenn ihr traurig seid
Spielen wir für euch
    —-translates to—-
We are the servants of your ears
We were born for music
Whenever you’re sad
We play for you

    —From “Feuer und Wasser“
Feuer und Wasser kommt nicht zusammen
Kann man nicht binden sind nicht verwandt
In Funken versunken steh ich in Flammen
Und bin im Wasser verbrannt
Im Wasser verbrannt
   —-translates to—
Fire and water don’t come together
Can’t be bound, aren’t related
Sunken in sparks, I am aflame
And am burned in the water
Burned in the water

   —From “Mann Gegen Mann“
Ich bin die Ecke aller Räume
Ich bin der Schatten aller Bäume
In meiner Kette fehlt kein Glied
Wenn die Lust von hinten zieht
Mein Geschlecht schimpft mich Verräter
Ich bin der Alptraum aller Väter
   —-translates to—-
I am the corner of all rooms
I am the shadow of all trees
No link is missing in my chain
When lust pulls from behind
My sex calls me a traitor
I am the nightmare of all fathers

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Hier Kommt Meine Musik

Ok, similar to my “Rammstien21″ post but I’m going to go on about all the other music I listen to… Let me tell you I am very limited in the music I listen to, Rammstein is my main cup of tea and that is like my life haha but yeah…

NOW…
I listen to:
-Rammstein
See “Rammstein21″ post
-Emigrate
A branch off of Rammstein, “Richard Kruspe” Rammstein’s lead guitarist started a side project when he Emigrated to New York, all the other band memebers are all from other different countries, He released his first album just last year… He writes it all, the musik, the lyrics etc, he writes it in English even though his mother tongue is German… I love it, it just has that Rammstein feel to it…
-Knorkator
They are like German Industrial Comedy band, they are so frikin weird and I love it, they’ve been on Eurovision before so that’ll give you an idea of how weird they’d be haha…
-The Veronicas
I think the veronicas are fucking HOT! Lisa is the hottest, she is like fucking HOT! If I were single I would bonk her without a single doubt… thats how I originally got into them, cause i thought they were hot, I hate mainstream shit but it slowly grew on me… Now I own both their albums and love it!
-Jeffree Star
Myspace drag queen, he is awesome, kind of like electronic/rap/etc … weird…
-AC/DC
I dont really have to tell you about them, just ol’ classic Aussie music, gotta love Aka Daka!, My favourite songs are The Razors Edge and Moneytalks
-Rob Zombie
Rob Zombie, love his image! his last album was my favourite, I’m not really a fan of his film work, just love his music
-Slipknot
I used to be mad on Slipknot but they’ve died off from me lately as they’ve became like a fair bit main stream and stuff… I originally got into them when I was in year 8, but died off around when I turned 16ish…

What kind of music is everyone else into???

What I’ve Been Doing

Well I stayed at Tameeka’s house last night, we watched TV all afternoon and night and then crawled into bed at about 11:30… not a very interesting night, poor Meeka has a cold… she woke up this morning with Boogers on the back of her shirt HAHA!
I didn’t want to get up this morning (does anyone ever want to?) it was so warm and snug in bed with Tameeka

Well this morning Traci (meeks Mum) gave us a lift to tafe, she worked night shift and was really tired this morning… Well I have a cheese and vegemite sandwich for lunch today (Thanks babe!)

Well I’m in class, maybe I should be reading along with the class… Better get to it!

ADIOS

Rammstein21

Ok I thought I’d let people in on the origin of my username “Rammstein21″

Rammstein being my favourite band EVER! Their live shows are phenomenal, I first heard of them in 2002 when i was 12 seeing the movie Triple X, they appear in the beggining onstage performing their song “Feuer Frei!” translating to “Fire at Will”… They are German, they sing all in German, except one or two b-sides that have been in English and one song on the last album “Te Quiero Puta!” which is entirely in Spanish…
They are a 6 piece band consisting of Till Lindemann (Lead vocals), Richard Kruspe (lead guitar / backing vocals), Paul Landers (rhythm guitar / backing vocals), Christoph Schneider (drums), Christian ‘Flake’ Lorenz (keyboards), Oliver Riedel (bass / backing vocals) …
they formed in 1993 and released their first album in September of 1995 “Herzeleid” translating to “Heartache”, the album was highly successful throughout Europe but their “breakthrough album” titled “Sehnsucht” released in 1997 got them known all across the USA and they soon became the most successful non-english speaking band of all time… They have released a total of 5 studio albums and 2 live albums throughout their career “Herzeleid -1995″ “Sehnsucht -1997″ “Mutter -2001″ “Reise, Reise -2004″ “Rosenrot -2005″
Their live shows are known as some of the most intense around, everytime they have been nominated for Best live act they clean up the award… one of their main instruments onstage is Fire using “Flamethrowers, Fire pots, flaming microphone stands, Till singing whole songs engulfed in flames, flame shooting masks etc…
They were once very well known for their stage act during the song “Bück Dich” where Till would have a dildo attached to the inside of his pants that sprayed water and milk all over the audience and other band members, many people took this very seriously while others found it hilarious…

My favourite line from any of their songs comes from their song “Feuer und Wasser”

Feuer und Wasser kommt nicht zusammen
Kann man nicht binden sind nicht verwandt
In Funken versunken steh ich in Flammen
und bin im Wasser verbrannt
Im Wasser verbrannt

 Which translates to:

Fire and water don’t come together
Can’t be bound, aren’t related
Sunken in sparks, I am aflame
and am burned in the water
Burned in the water
 
And the origin of the 21 in the name is about my first ever crush’s birthday was on 21/11/89 and my birthday is the 2/1/90
Simple 2 and 1 together
My favourite numbers are 21 and 11 – 11 because my GF’s bday is the 11/05/90…
Simple

I’ll post a few videos of Rammstein if anyone wants to check them out:

This one is from their 2005 concert in a small club in London: performing Feuer Frei! with Fire masks at the end:

And here is another video of the 2005 France concert of Rammstein performing “Morgenstern” -the best bit is at tim-3:10, 4 mortar hits go off on the stage and the whole arena glows red, it’s bloody AWESOME!!!

This is their music video Mein Teil: the song was written about a cannibal in Germany who found a willing victim over the internet who wanted to be eaten, they met had sex then the victim cut off his penis, cooked it and they ate it together before the victim bled to death… (dont worry the video isn’t like that lol)

Weekend Of Bordem

My weekend was boring as all hell…

Meek was in Melbourne as she went to a concert with her Mum and I was stuck at home doing nothing…
I spoke to my Dad on the phone for the first time in 3 years last night… It was so weird :s

This Weekend

Well I will not be able to post for the next few days as the weekend is coming up and most of it I’ll be at home keeping an eye on my brother, we don’t have the net at home currently but if I do get access to a computer over the weekend I will be sure to post…

ADIOS!

A Place At Work

“Work Placement”, that’s what I’m in now… at the TAFE helpdesk.. well not actually AT the help desk right now, I’ve had to log into a computer in the LIRN space and test out a few programs to just see if they’re working… I get lunch break soon so I’m happy about that…
I also got a fancy name badge.. well it doesn’t have my name on it but it says “ICT Technician” I dont quite see myself as a very good “Technician” but it’s just so I look more like I am working there and don’t look out of place…
I have to leave this one short as I really should be working on this…
Who else has a job… or work placement???

Read My Mind

Poetry, I think it is gay… yet I write it… hmmm, I know… weird hey?Well I don’t like sharing it, most of it I never do “until now”… I have written things for English over the years and for own personal keep…
I thought I’d just let some of them out to the world now: (these have now been posted on my myspace for the first time now aswell)

 

You wont understand any of them as they have a much different meaning to them then what they come across as… Some are written from personal experience some are my own personal beliefs some are just things that I’ve heard of happeneing in the news maybe or something I’ve just randomly made up, well here are only SOME that I feel comfortable enough to share:

 

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Should We Believe?

We worship what we’ve never seen
A dead, sacrificed human being
We don’t believe what one has done
But we believe in a deceased one

We are expected to obey
Do what a book does say
A real god would want us pleased
Live how we want and stop disease
Wouldn’t give the good disabilities

If god created the earth
Then god created drugs
Created pain, created guns

If there is a god why not give us a sign
You’ve not already and I know why
Because you’re made up
You’re a Lie

© Jamie Bushnell 2006

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I Will Wait For You

I will wait for you
I will wait right here
Until my life is through
I will wait for you

You vowed to return
And I stand by that
What you said was true
I will wait for you

Every minute time stands still
I will talk to no one only to you I will
I will wait where I last saw you
I will die, Just waiting for you

I Will Wait For You – pt.2
(I Waited)

I waited for you for so long
When you came back I was so wrong
You said you’d remember, that wasn’t true
You don’t love me, but I still love you

© Jamie Bushnell 5-2007

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 Widowed

He’s lost the love of his life
He’s been widowed, he’s lost his wife
He cries himself to sleep every night
He falls asleep, with a knife

© Jamie Bushnell 5-2007

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Alone, In The Dark

Caught in the darkness, with nothing to see
I hope I’m alone, I hope it’s only me
I cannot see, something I can hear
My heart stops, paralyzed with fear

My mouth opens, no noise is made
Sweat and tears drip down my face
I want to scream, but no one will hear
Alone in the dark, paralyzed with fear

Caught in the darkness, pleading for light
At the door a glimmer, A shine from a knife
Blood stains the sheets, I was right to fear
Alone in the dark, paralyzed with fear

© Jamie Bushnell 9-2007

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She Dances For Me

She slides of her clothes
She strikes a fine pose
She sits on my knee
She dances for me

In her command
I am her man
I call her miss
She steals a kiss

She’s on all fours
Against the wall
I want her more
I want it all

© Jamie Bushnell 9-2007

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Destiny Is Tainted

I was once loved, I never will again
When you said it, I knew then
You were the one, the only one
I don’t want life, spent without you
Destiny is tainted

Forgiveness is a word I won’t use
My future I always saw with you
Everything I do
Reminded of you
Destiny is tainted

It is gone, my future is no more
I want it the way it was before
I was your love, I was your friend
This is the beginning of the end

Destiny is tainted
Tainted with ache and without you
My destiny is at a dead end
Until death, will you love me then?
Again?

© Jamie Bushnell 10-2007

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High

Can’t see what’s passing
We are tripping
Head so light
We are floating

The colors so bright
They hurt my eye
You can’t scare me
I cannot die

I can laugh
When nothings funny
It’s getting further
Keep on running

Not in myself
We are helpless
Eat myself
Feed the masses

I am god
Make me sane
Screw it up
Feel no pain

Feel my breath
Say my name
I am different
You’re all the same

I am so light
Reach for a height
I am in flight
I am so high

© Jamie Bushnell 10-2007

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Hear My Call, Say My Name

I am master, I am lord
New world order
I am god

Hear my call, say my name
You will fall, feel my pain
I am free, you are insane
I take lead, you are tame

© Jamie Bushnell 11-2007

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The Lord’s Army

The lord has sent us to destroy you all
We kill everyone and answer his call
We are the lord’s army, mighty and strong
We will follow, whether right or wrong

We are a cult, do what we’re told
We gave our life and sold our soul
A price we’ll pay for seeing a god
Living by rules we slowly rot

This is our life, we can live
Take it over
Mutiny of god

© Jamie Bushnell 12-2007

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I Am Father

Listen my children, I am father
Take my hand and I will lead
Take it now and follow me

In the garden on the grass
Take my hand make it last
I will take you from all pain
Except for when I do the same

Crouch down to the cold
You can never grow old

Watch father kill, I can do
I will hurt mother too
Soil your eyes, you are mine
Hear the time, watch us cry

© Jamie Bushnell 12-2007

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Fantasize

Looking at you in the dark
Feel me breathe, stop your heart
Everything I can see
Stop you from your feeling me
Imagination is so wild
Fantasize me for a while

Find the world that isn’t real
Dream of how it makes you feel
Watch me out the back your eyes
Bite my tongue, tighten the ties

I am yours you are mine
In this world there is no crime
It is wrong but it is right
Wrong in real, right in mine

I am your world to get away
You can see me any day
Just close your eyes
Just fantasize

© Jamie Bushnell 3-2008

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I have about 50 all up but I only choose to share these ones (most of these were the ones I handed in for English last year)… Think what you want to think. 
I know what they mean, it’s like an artist painting a picture, and you look at it and see something completely different to the artist’s story…

 

ADIOS!